id rather waste our time together, yeah cuz we can get down

Tue, 02 May 2006 07:26:28 GMT

hey guys, i havent dropped off the face of the earth, but its hard for me to find time to do much. so lets see, i have threee jobs and a boyfriend, im going to prom with shawnna, and maybe going to west bloomfields prom too.... i miss you all, give me a call some time if you want to hang, as ive said before i lost all the numbers so give me a call... see you later hunnies ~muah~

**Sarah**

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 20:09:49 GMT

well... im not single.. we're trying it again... and since i have two jobs and work 55+ hours a week we wont see each other every day... which should help... this way we'll have a chance to miss each other... so yeah...
yeah, i work at both Beaners and Jets pizza.... i work every day.... but three days a week i only work one of my jobs, which is good, though i should prolly take one day entirely off... hmm... we'll see how i do for a few weeks then I'll ask Brad for Sundays off if i have to.... well, im going into to work at 4, until close.... but it should be good cuz its Jets and its high energy....

but i definately need these jobs, ive got tons to save for, and this way i cant spend all of my money cuz i'll be making it all the time...

i guess thats all, if you want to hang out, give me a call (you'll prolly have to leave a message with your number) and then i'll call you back as soon as i can, and we'll work something out... :)

<3 you all!!!!
~Sarah~

P.S. Brandon got his eyebrow pierced.... its hott.... just had to say something about it..... love you all!!!

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 22:30:31 GMT

i miss him... right now i want to go back in time, to when he and i were happy, a time when everything seemed possible, and we were going to be together forever... i miss having his arms around me, and hearing him laugh, or whisper in my ear... i miss hugging him, and kissing him and messing with him... i miss playing soul caliber and trying so hard to beat him.... i miss being with him... i wish there were a way for him and i to be together again, but its not looking too bright... i had hoped that i had just missed having someone, but its an empty hope, all i miss is him, all of him... sometimes i think that i'd rather be with him fighting than not wiith him at all, and other times i manage not to think about it... all i know is that i cant shake him, he plagues my dreams, my thoughts, i'll hear a song he liked and i'll cry, i cant even listen to country anymore, all i can think of is him singing durpa and making fun of it... i get so distracted and then i'll realize that i was replaying a day with him, or a moment, or a kiss, i barely sleep, thoughts of him keep me up... i cant watch movies that he and i saw together, cuz i'll start crying... i just want him back here with me, but he wont talk to me... i wonder how hes doing, and if he misses me, or just tries to forget me...

i think the worst thing about heart break is that it feels like it should kill you but you manage to wake up every morning, and somehow you manage to keep going even though it feels like youve been run over with a speeding train...

i have to go, ive got things to do and ill do them though my heart longs to be in his arms again, and my body feels sluggish and breathing is hard and seeing is nearly impossible for the tears are getting in the way...

i guess it can be summed up to, god this sucks....

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:26:28 GMT

i hate being single, i just want things the way they were, i wish he and i worked, he was real great until a month ago. i wish he hadnt done the facade, but wishes arent horses and i cant ride anyways. he and i couldve been happy, i love him still but i love the him i knew for three months, not the real him. i hope i didnt smother or push him away, but its too late now i guess. he said he had something to say to me, but i havent heard from him since, i want him to tell me because it'll give me closure, im still hanging. well, i guess thats all.

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 02:48:10 GMT

I'm done, I'm done I'm done I'm done.
I'm sick of the pain.
I have to see a surgeon tomorrow.
My hips are hurting, I'm on pain meds.
I just want the pain to go away.

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 15:48:09 GMT

hey guys, i just my phone back, my old one was crushed, so for those of you who tried to contact me, i dont have your numbers and I'm truly sorry I couldn't talk. please call me now and maybe we can hang out soon, I miss you all!!! love!!!!

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 21:50:43 GMT

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what if im not enough

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 05:34:52 GMT

i definately had fear grip me today, and couldnt tell him, i thought id lost him, thougth he would leave me, im afraid to have a fight with him, what if he decides that im not worth it, i know he says he'll fight to the end, but what if when the end gets close, he just gives up, because im not good enough, what if i cant keep him happy, what if i cant make him love me.... what if he leaves, or cheats or does something because i cant satisfy him, because im not enough.... what if im not enough

on another note........-----l
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You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours!

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YOU
1. Name:
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3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
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4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.

i definately had fear grip me today, and couldnt tell him, i thought id lost him, thougth he would leave me, im afraid to have a fight with him, what if he decides that im not worth it, i know he says he'll fight to the end, but what if when the end gets close, he just gives up, because im not good enough, what if i cant keep him happy, what if i cant make him love me.... what if he leaves, or cheats or does something because i cant satisfy him, because im not enough.... what if im not enough

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 19:59:26 GMT

Alright guys, I have something to say, and I believe that most of you will be outraged/upset/frustrated when you read this. But know that the decision was mine, and that I prayed, and I thought, and I cried, and I have made my decision, regardless of what you say, of what you think, no matter if you want to scream at me for what I have done. I am dropping out of school, tomorrow in fact, and I am going to get my G.E.D. End of story. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. Good thing is, I have a job and I can stay in guard, Bad thing, no graduation, no prom, no senior all night party. I love you all, and I wish the best for all of you, but my path does not take me down the same road that you are going down, I get to take the road less travelled.... Here's hoping it doesnt lead to the ocean and I drown....

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 03:37:06 GMT

hey guys, its been a while, i guess i have so much to say but im too confused to say it.... when i figure everything out, then i'll let you know whats up... i guess if youre bursting with curiosty, give me a call and i'll let you know if i can....

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:42:35 GMT

I JUST GOT A NEW LAPTOP!!! ok so its not brand new, but its new for me!! i am so excited, and now we have wifi set up in the house!!! so im loving my sisters boyfriend!! he gives me sool stuff, plus hes a good guy.. other than that, not looking forward to going back to school, though i dont think im going till after the new year... i hate missing this much school but i get tired if i stay up for four lours, let alone walk around and learn new stuff... though i did just get some of my homework, and im getting more on monday, so i'll be able to do it before i go back, even if im in vegas when i do it.... other than that, things with the boy are going well, i cant wait to give him his present, hell love it.. oh, he is such a sweetie!!! lets see, other than that, im wondering if i still have a job.. did a week of training, got sick, im about to go out of town (still sick) really wouldnt blame them if they didnt want to give me the job anymore, kind of feel bad about it but what can i do? well.. im getting sleepy. damnit... talk to you guys later!!!

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 15:27:42 GMT

hey guys, still sick, leaving for vegas on the 21, seeing dad, crying a ton, missing my boy, missing my friends, wishing i wasnt a leper, wanting to snuggle into the abyss, desiring to be held until my tears are gone

btw, when you see me next, dont mind me if i look blue, most likely i wont be happy when i get back from vegas, hell im not too happy just thinking about it

sorry guys, happy-go-lucky sarah is out of the building, and i dont know when shes coming back.... yeah

yeah

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 03:48:35 GMT

i hate this..

im sick....

im not quite sure what ive got..

i went to the doctors, they tested for flu strep and mono...

i came up negative for all of them, but the mono test isnt 1 hundo percent acurate.....

plus brandon had mono....

so, we're thinking its mono....

so any one who is in any of my classes want to email me or bring my homework, thatd be cool...

at least i could do something...

though i do a lot of sleeping..

a lot!! and i am so sore...

i hate this!!!!!!! this is so gross!!!!!!! in other news, my sister is getting married in july..

i really need to start looking for a periwinkle dress... you know the colors not that bad, but the name....

gross....

ahhh, im going out of my mind...

it hurts my eyes to read for too long, and i can only watch so much tv!!!!! im going to go insane...

and get stir crazy...

but then any time i have to go out, i get so tired from all the energy it takes...

grrrr......

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 05:24:33 GMT

i had a good break... had thanksgiving with the bf.. met his family, crazy but amazing people... hung out with friends... shawnna met the bf... that went well.. hung out with mikey.. it was so much fun, we went to three different movie theaters trying to see a movie, and it took us like three hours, but it was definately worth it, it was tons of fun!!! also, i have an interview for tomorrow, at beaners... and by the sounds of it, its almost as if ive already been hired... and im so excited!!! also, staying at beckys for the next week!!! i havent hung out with her in a while, so this should be good!!! having some issues with my mom... shes being a bit overbearing, keping up my grades and all that jazz... my oldest sister is bugging the crap out of me... telling me i HAVE to go to college right away and get a career cuz no one else has, but you know what, maybe im not quite ready for college yet, maybe i want to work for a year and then go to college, im not ready to grow up, im not ready to be an adult. other than that, ive realized that i am a crappy friend. i missed a very close friends bday party, i forgot to call a friend and let him know i couldnt hang out, im horrible at calling people, i dont like to talk on the phone, so why do i keep promising to call people? simple, they'll get fed up if they do all the calling... pathetic... i cant even get on the phone to call shawnna, let alone some one ive known for less than a year... like i said, terrible friend... and i suck at this whole school thing, it seems as though i cannot do homework... give me work to do in school, and fine, i'll do it and do it well... tell me to bring it home, do it and then bring it back and youve lost me at bring it home. i hate to bring the stuff home... i lose interest as soon (if not sooner than) the bell rings and im off to another class, or home... and thats worrisome, because i need to get my grades up and please my mom, and be able to go out with friends, and stay out later than i have been able to lately and be able to graduate... ive just lost so much interest... my head hurts, my stomach hurts, im worried out of my skull, and sleep is long lost dream.... i guess ill be going.... sisters up.... ill talk to you guys later... bye.....

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 22:53:00 GMT

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Backstreet Boys--> Incomplete
2. Bloodhound Gang--> Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo
3. Default--> Count on Me
4. Fall Out Boy--> Sugar We're Going Down
5. Jack Johnson--> Sitting Waiting Wishing
6. Rise Against--> Swing LIfe Away
7. Motion City Soundtrack--> Perfect Teeth

1. Shawnna
2. Brandon
3. Anna
4. David
5. Keith
6. Sarah
7. Jeenee...* you know what i mean chuck!*

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 19:11:24 GMT

Every body lives for something, you may not know what it is that you’re living for, or where it is, but part of the journey is about not knowing, and getting there anyway.

its not about how many mistakes you make, but how many you learn from that makes the difference.

you cant have the good times without the bad, though sometimes it seems like there are at least five bad times for every good, those good times will seem fifteen times better than they would have without all the bad times before.

its not about being the best, but about being your best.

what do you do when youve found the love of your life, why, kiss him of course.

no matter how lonely you are now, when your love comes blasting through your front door, your life will have renewed purpose and be worth every bit of loneliness you ever went through.

no matter how much life hurts now, it'll get better, but only if you let it and you learn from your mistakes.

major bonding yesterday...

wow...

what a night i had, yesterday was amazing, and today i realized something... and all i can say is wow, i am so lucky....

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 23:05:21 GMT

smiles... yeah, thats right, smiles.. you want to know why.. Brandon, thats why... he is so sweet to me.... showers me with compliments, and yesterday, we sat there looking at each other... happy as can be, not saying a damned thing.. and hes a great kisser.... i know you all wanted to know that! hehe... in other news, i got a new puppy, a chocolate lab... we named him Simon, how adorable!!! any who, ive got to get going... errands to do before i go on my date!!! love you all!!!!*muah!*

~Sarah~

I sold a porn star for birth control

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 20:19:45 GMT

Take the first letter in your first name:

A - I fucked
B - I played with
C - I need
D - I sucked
E - I gave head to
F - I got wet n wild with
G - I tasted
H - I played
I - I swallowed down
J - I blew
K - I got down and dirty with
L - I loved
M - I hated
N - I was desperate for
O - I ordered
P - I partied with
Q - I had quickie with
R - I got rowdy with
S - I sold
T - I turned on
U - I gave birth to
V - I stripped for
W - I milked
X - I gave hand to
Y - I aroused
Z - I sold

Take the last letter in your last name:

A - a stranger
B - a male stripper
C - a cat
D - a pencil
E - a naked statue
F - a firefighter
G - a goat
H - a MILF
I - a bastard
J - a male prostitute
K - a clock
L - an adult toy
M - a Louis Vuitton bag
N - a whore
O - a DILF
P - a pimp
Q - a quarter
R - a pornstar
S - a slut
T - a nerd
U - a stuft animal
V - a bitch
W - an ugly fat kid
X - a cheerleader
Y - a gay guy
Z - a pyromaniac

Now take your middle initial (if you have no middle name, put the first letter of your mothers maiden name):

A - and lost my virginity
B - for a one night stand
C - for money
D - so I could hookup with a jock
E - and I got banged after
F - for a water bra
G - for a cherry flavored condom
H - so I could get a nose job
I - for a vacation
J - for birth control
K - for a shopping spree
L - so people would talk about me
M - and it was hot
N - so I could get butt implants
O - for sex
P - so I could go around naked
Q - all for lust
R - just for the attention
S - for love
T - so I could be sexy
U - all for a fat kid
V - and i hated it
W - all for pleasure
X - so I could get a boob job
Y - for lube
Z - all for a hot guy

NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE TITLE BEING WHATEVER SENTENCE YOU CAME UP WITH!!!

i thought this was pretty funny... so ha!!! hehehe.. pornstar.... birth control... hehehe.... see you guys!!!
~Sarah

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 02:33:44 GMT

hey there, its been a bit... brandon just left, what a sweetheart, he wanted to hang out with a friend, but didnt want to ditch me.. i told him that he not supposed to ditch his friends just because he gets into a relationship, i mean, you are so bound to get annoyed with one another if you see each other all the time and ditch all your friends, besides, i dont want his friends thinking that im taking up all his time... i do want his friends to like me, personally... but he has the day off tomorrow, so i'll see him then... and then we have a double date set up for friday... not sure what were all doing, but were doing it with Jason and his g/f Chelsea... im excited... i finaly get to meet one of his g/fs, he goes thru them quick enough, htat there is no real reason to bother meeting them, but theyve been together for about a month now... im so happy for him!! anywho, i think i'll be going now, maybe to sleep? eh, who knows!! bye guys!!!!
~Sarah~

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 22:25:19 GMT

hey guys, its been a while since i updated, not much to say... but i hate how people bring me down... dont get me wrong, i want to be there and all, but sometimes all i want to do is say "fuck you, its not my problem, why should i care?" but id never do that... i love everyone too much, and i guess myself too litte... but i noticed that when i hit the rocks and break bones, thats when i realize my worth, i am a good person, i am pretty, i am smart and i am talented, no matter what anyone says. i am not fat and ugly, i am thin and gorgeous! no matter if it was said in jest, i never appreciated it, it hurt, and it affected me... but i wont let it anymore! i am strong, without you, without anyone! that night i was numb, but the next day i felt better, and ive kept on feeling better, so thank you, you have helped make me who i am, stronger and better and more confident. thank you truly. on another note, anna and her brandon are doing very well.. i think this could be the guy... i know shes thought it was others before... but he makes the most sense... im so happy for the both of them. i hope that my feeling is right, because hes a good guy, and they seem to deserve each other. i need to talk to shawnna, but i dont want to, we'll only fight, because she wont like what i have to tell her, it may even break her heart, but im positive in what i feel. she and i just.... well, i'll keep that for later... i lov eyou guys.. but im about to go to dinner with anna brandon my mom emily and best of all my nefew matthew!! he is so cool!! ive missed him so much!! and hes here for the weekend!!!! i'll talk to you guys later!!!!!
~Sarah!~

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 02:00:24 GMT

ok, so you know the saying the wond from one door closing opens another.... yeah, welll, door number one mustve slammed because now three doors have opened... and im not quite sure what to do.. damnit.... tee hee... but im getting happier.. today was a strangely good day.... and im not sure why, but who am i to question it, right? if you want the details, ask me, im not gonna bore everyone else with them.. so i love you guys!! bye!
~Moose!~

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:31:45 GMT

hey, its been a while.. just been in a funk lately... you know? its hard to deal with sometimes, times when i just want to cry myself to sleep, not have to do homework.. but i hear thats just normal stuff... funny thing is that ive finally started to believe good things about myself, inspite of whats been going on lately... which is kind of crazy... tomorrow im staying after school to sell doughnuts, and then im giving Matt a backrub cuz i said that i would...and cuz i want to... crazy as it sounds.... but ive got to go, its almost Becky's b-day and, well you know.... im at her house.. so luv you guys!!!
~Sarah~

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 14:28:00 GMT

Three Names You Go By
- Sarah
- Moose
- Mom

Three Parts of Your Heritage
- Romanian
- Russian
- German

Three Things That Scare You
- Love
- Being hurt
- Spiders

Three of Your Everyday Essentials
- Books
- Friends
- MUsic

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now
- MCS shirt
- blue panties
- matching bra... hehehe

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists
- Breaking Benjamin
- Jack Johnson
- Avenged Sevenfold

Three of Your Favorite Songs - at the moment
- Rain--> Breaking Benjamin
- Siting, Waiting, Wishing--> JAck Johnson
- Polyhemerous--> Breaking Benjamin

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
- Trust
- Fun
- Deep Conversations

Two Truths and a Lie
- I can write poetry pretty well
- I am actually pretty damn hott
- I am really confused

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You
- Eyes
- Smile
- Arms

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies
- Reading
- Writing
- Color Guard

Three Things You Want to do Really Badly Right Now
- Spin
- Finish School and start teaching
- See David

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation
- England
- Vermont
- Vegas Baby!

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die
- do my very best, and try my hardest
- fall in love with someone who loves me back
- save the world one person at a time

Three people I would like to see take this quiz
- Jeannie
- Mikey
- Keith

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 03:38:02 GMT

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» ...Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

yeah i know... its dumb...

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 18:45:22 GMT

so im going to vegas over winter break.. three days in vegas, three days at the grand canyon, and on the way back for three more days in vegas, im stopping to see my dad... gross.
i dont know how i feel about that, i mean i dont like the guy, but i really want to see him.. see what he's done to himself... show myself what not to do, what mistakes i really dont want to make....
and im going to feel out of the loop...
this whole thing started out as a sister thing, now its a sister thing as well as a fiancee meeting the future father-in-law, and the grandkids seeing their grandpa at least one more time kind of a thing.... its going to be my sister, her fiancee and her two kids and his daughter... and me... its going to be so wierd... im going to feel so out of the group... i hate things like this...
in other news... i hurt my ankle, and i wish i knew what exactly is wrong with it.. it hurts and i cant bend it, it doesnt sound promising, not only not promising, but downright dreadful...
tomorrow is Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement... a day where you get closer to G-d by not eating.. i dont know about you, but all not eating does is make me lose my concentration and hungry... you know?
anyways, i guess thats it... i'll talk to you guys later!! love you!!!